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I'm trying to write the essay for a scholarship application through my program.

I applied last year. I didn't get it last year.

and I'm a disastermess about this. Because I *need* the scholarship, but as long as I haven't written it yet, I havent messed up my chances of getting the scholarship, right?

Well, I know that is perfectionism and paranoia and self sabotage talking, but *headdesk*

I'm still really struggling.

UGH.